This particular day was hard & a stomach turning roller coaster of a ride. I know that “in with the new” is really going to be amazing once I look back in the next year. I am looking forward to the bigger & better things. I tried my hardest to stay strong..I only cried a few times, but the stomach took many turns, dips & dives throughout the day.
When we pulled up to the house & I first saw the excavator & dumpster my heart pounded, skipped a beat here & there and my stomach flipped flops it’s never flipped flopped before. I knew this day had to come & honestly the sooner the better. But in all honesty I wasn’t prepared. It’s like when you lose someone you love & you weren’t expecting it and the day comes to put them to rest. Your mind just hasn’t caught up to the process yet.
I tried to distance myself from everyone around so I could take pictures & just have my moment of silence. The first slap the excavator claw took to the house I just wanted to bury myself. It was the most bittersweet moment I’ve felt to date. What a crazy feeling!!! There was no going back and really this is what I was thinking. No going back happened June 15, 2012 the house was beyond any repair that morning.
I felt part of the day move in slow motion & other parts went quickly. It was hot & a threat of rain lingered but never showed up. There were so many ups & downs throughout the day. Kacey & I went to lunch just the two of us. It was nice & we haven’t done that in a very long time. We went to Annarella’s on the Green. This is the restaurant right across & up the hill from our house that sits on the golf course. It is beautiful & peaceful there…just what we needed. The owners went through what we are going through last September (but they just now was able to demo their house..lots going on for them & I pray for them daily). This was the first time we’ve been in there since the fire. Anna was so nice, compassionate, caring, etc. She provided us lunch on her & told us anytime to come in & eat that it is on her & if there is anything they could do they were willing & able. My heart filled up with joy & appreciation!!
There was a foundation wall we had been watching throughout the morning. It had a bow in it & I started taking pictures of it early. By the time we came back from lunch it was far worse. We ended up with that foundation wall collapsing & all I can say is thank GOD I was standing were I was to yell out that it was coming down. We have had angels surrounding us & someone that loves us very much watching over us.
The house has completely been removed. I am very thankful for the guys that have been working with us. They have known Kacey since he was just a teenager & the compassion that they have shown is appreciated. Kacey’s business is busy (thankfully) and so much of the process is on my shoulders. I don’t want to let my husband down so I must remain strong & intact. I have a ton of confidence that the group we have will continue to guide me & explain every inch of this rebuild to me with kindness & professionalism (because I will be asking dumb questions along the way J ).
We are almost done with the plans which means we can soon submit for our building permits. I am excited & I am starting to fall in love with what lies ahead. This was out of my control & a love I have been forced into.
Soon there will be pictures that will show the new…